Back?

Well... it has been quite some time since my last post. Here I am compelled to write something but I'm not sure what. 2009 was a year that I am sure to remember. This past year I have moved twice which sucks... I don't care who you are or how much stuff you have - moving is a pain. I fell hopelessly in 'lust' with a man I was ready to marry... yes, I said lust... not love... and for a woman that has always kept her distance from marriage I almost made one of the biggest/pain in the butt mistakes of my life, so thank you fate from making such a drastic mistake. I'll tell ya it's an odd feeling to have convinced yourself you're in love with someone and then realizing the truth - hard one to swallow actually. I was wrong, and I hate being wrong. Also this year I lost my job, laid off like so many others. I was laid off on my birthday - March 9th if you're sending presents lol. So this whole year I've been unemployed - a very unusual thing for me. I've learned a lot about myself this year... I've always been pretty secure in who I am, and always thought I knew what I wanted - come to find out I am better adept at knowing what others want, not myself. I am currently working on that - it's a nice feeling making yourself happy instead of everyone else. It's who I am, a people pleaser... I love that part of me, now just to extend it to myself. I believe this year will be one of self discovery and improving my life, all aspects of it.

Thank you to all those who support me, and who have kept reminding me that I need to get back to writing here... somehow people seem interested in me... I should start embracing that

Much love
Silly :)